Something personal to share

I decided a couple of weeks ago to get rid of ICEKOOLBABE as I think that name really makes me COLD.

My uncle during a conversation suggested that I was Cheerful Ann. Actually i was a cheerful person before lah. Then I became grumpy, cynical etc etc etc....

When my uncle suggested this name I said Hey, maybe this ICEKOOLBABE was not a good name so i changed everything to Cheerful Ann. I don't know it worked physiologically lah.

I went for a lovely Retreat in Maranatha in Janda Baik with the wonderful Fr. Monty and he said somethings to me that really got me started and thinking.

He said that despite everything I was a very bubbly (long time haven't been referred that way) person and had such an infectious laugh and that he was so amazed that I had so much expression on my face when I talked.

Hmmm, I was kinda disappointed when I went for the Retreat cos it was on healing and I did not feel healed. A participant suggested that maybe I did not need healing (total rubbish) and I was so sad that his wife sat on the potty and suddenly burst into tears and all I got was this hymn "Love it was that made us and it was love that saved us....." What nonsense.

Ah then cos i am charismatic maybe I was expecting the healing that we receive during the LSS healing sessions and that means DRAMATIC all the way.

I realised that when Monty said to sit with God and breathe in out the love and ask God to send Jesus to the areas that I needed him in, maybe that itself was something.

He also said that we should let God look at us and let Him enjoy us as we too must look at God and enjoy Him (something to that effect).

Fr. Monty actually got me to think and I said to myself that I was going to me the old me, Bubbly, laughing GILA GILA person and I needed to change my life and I think this time I had better sit more with God and let him change the evil ways in me.

Anyway since this retreat I have felt better and despite the difficulties of life and loneliness (yes that too), I can be a better person.

I also am glad that I have family that care.

My cousins were all so terkejut when they got this sms asking for forgiveness etc and some panicked, they thought i was going to end my life!!! Me, a gila gila person to even go that far. EEEE I am a coward lah.

I was so glad that some cousins guessed that religion had to play a part in it. Thank you Peter and Leo.

Luckily lah I did not manage to send to my direct family and friends too.

You see Fr. Monty said we live in the past and to move on, we must live in the present and to ask for forgiveness and tell people you love them and I did exactly that but I guess it was not the right thing to do.

I feel great.......that's all I wanna say

AND thank you God for sending your Son and Spirit to me to help me realise that without you, we are nothing.

Long time lah

This has been a long time since I have written. it's that I was not in the right frame of mind to do so.

Anyway what is the latest?????

I went for a retreat at Maranatha in Janda Baik last weekend and had a lovely time with God and new found friends. This was my fourth one but had the bestest people attending and the priest was such a lovely man, a priest called Fr. Monty.

His retreat was straight to the point and he was funny too.

His words to me during my one-to-one with him was really uplifting and I will always cherish what he said and remember them to perk me up when I need it.

Also during the journey I discovered "Leech Therapy". You saw it right. I am now into my 3rd day and have found that my legs are now not so ugly as the dark marks are disappearing. My diabetes level has dropped!!!

of cos the leeches are having a lovely time sucking in my toxic.

I am hoping for some good results and i believe that this is a good thing.

Will continue on this subject later.

Lazy Bum

Hah. I have been such a lasy lasy bummmm lah.

About time I write something again.

By the way, am still waiting for my friend to send me the pictures I took in Bali....more than 1 month already lah.

Tomorrow I am having a little Easter Hi-Tea for young gals at my home.

Still don't know what to do lah except eat.....

Have to think of something...

Till later,

ann

BALI !!!!

After having nothing to write, I finally have something to share.

I went to Bali on 12 march 2009 by Air Asia (what else lah) and stayed for 5 fantastic, wonderful, awesome days at the Hard Rock Hotel there.

This was my second visit and things had changed but for the better.

The lovely and best part of my holiday was no rushing around (despite my tummy upsets), walking leisurely and shopping.

Of course, I took the opportunity to go for the massages and spas.....

What a life!!!!!

BUT here's the best part.....the band called "AFTER NINE" was playing at Centerstage at the hotel and good golly they were fantastic. Despite my tummy upset on one of the nites, i still went for at least a session.

Me, this 50 year old woman, asked them for a poster and told them that if I did not get one, i would steal one from the lobby....ha ha I got a poster, autographed too. Its now framed up in my bedroom.

Also got to know the band leader Michael and he was nice not like some band boys who seem so proud etc.

If you ever come across this band, look our for Tommy, Michael and Coco. They are really good.

I remembered my 50th Birthday party when they sang the Grease songs and also some of the 80's rock music.

Ah, nothing like music to end your day....

I shall upload pictures when they are ready.

I loved my holiday and its all thanks to my brother for paying and recommending the hotel.

See you around.....

Chatting on line _ ABSOLUTELY BIT ANYMORE FOR SOMETIME

Ha, knew that some people can't be trusted (the ones u meet on the net).

My last post i wrote about chatting online. man, was I pissed off with the guy. He must be one of those Nigerian con men lah.

He does not know me, claims to love me and got annoyed cos i said all this was too much to handle and tried to get high handed. YEEEEEEE

Anyway I hope he got the message that I was not interested.

Ha

Long time

Ha, I have been absent from there for sometime.

Since I last wrote here, I have not done much.

As I said at the beginning of this year that maybe it's time for me to start looking for friends and that I mean male friends ha ha ha.

Well I have actually started chatting lah. I hate chatting online but there is this guy who wants to chat with me so I chat on weekends only.

Nevermind a friend is a friend and we will see if this online friend is for real.

After my past experiences (that's why I hate chatting online) we will see how it goes.

I also saw my adopted daughter, who i think needs to visit the dentist. She has real bad tooth in front that needs to be pulled out.

Guess that's all my boring news for now,

Till my next one, See you....

31 January 2009

I had a lovely day yesterday.

Had Hi-tea from 12 noon till 5 p.m. at Hotel Equatorial with someone that I had not seen for 28 years!!!!

I knew Molly and her late hubby Buck (Bakar) since I was about 18 or so. I was a young girl and was working in this Sports Shop (the only one I think) in Butterworth and Buck came in one day with a few Custom guys with a Custom friend and Buck was this good looking guy and I knew that he was married and told my Malay friend Norma to forget it lah. He's taken.

Soon after that I met his Chinese wife Molly and their son who was such a real cutey pie 1 year or so baby. After that I spent lots of my time at their and playing with their son.

Soon I had to leave Butterworth cos my dad said that it was time I started looking out for a career and we kept in touch but after sometime lost touch till I got this sms from a friend late last year before Hari Raya that Buck passed away. I was so shocked. This lovely handsome man whom I had grown to love as an Abang was gone, taken away from his family so young in life. Of cos I knew that God has his plans and that Buck was in a better place. Anyway i got back in touch with Molly and she came down for Chinese New year so we decided to meet and I met her other 2 kids. Juliana I had seen as a babe but the youngest I had not met so we had good food and got to know each other and it was a lovely time I had and I hope they did too.

I felt so bad when Molly paid for the Hi-tea as I was going to treat her and in the end they decided to treat me cos of my 50th Birthday.

That night, I had dinner with another old friend Doris (i knew her when I was 20) at her home. She invited another old friend Priscilla and her beau Michael. First time meeting him and I thought he was a good looking bloke. We chatted and chatted till 12.30 a.m. and Michael and Pris sent me home.

I guess that old and good friends must be cherished and kept in touch with. Not to leave things to a once a year get-together. I must at least meet them every 3 months. These are people who knew me as a young gal and watched me grow and make mistakes and even helped me out by being there for me.

Altogether, I had a great day and I thank God for my family and friends.